Complicated

I promised myself I would never fall in love with you. But it was my dark days, and we were laughing way too hard, and I felt happy for the first time in a long time.. And I knew I was screwed. I meet you and I just click. I'm so comfortable with you and I don't have to pretend to be anyone or anything. I guess I love you. Really, really love you. I don't know why, I just did. I want to be with you, it is as simple and as complicated as that. The funny thing is I've been hurt so bad and I still love so hard. I admire my heart for that.

I'm trying my hardest to not act how I feel. I'm sorry because I love you too much and I show it too little. I know I'm wrong because I love you and don't tell it to you. I don't have a courage to do it. I'm scared if I tell you about my feelings, it'll cause problems. I don't want us to be strangers.

Before I fall asleep, I always think of you.. The words you said, the things we laughed about, the way you looked at me, the silent moments we shared.. And when I dreamed, it was about you, it was always about you. There is never a night that you don't cross my mind. Even if you didn't love me, I adored you. Maybe it sounds hypocritical, but I won't set my hopes too high on you, I only hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you're unwanted.

But what if I never get over you?
What if I continue to wake up every day of my fucking life and still want you so badly that my bones shake so much that they feel like they're going to break?
What if I keep waiting for a sign from God that never comes?
What if you never love me back?

I care about you, and I should want you to be happy. Even it means I must wind up being left out. I said that because I know we fall in love more than once. It will happen again.

Wakidjan & Tukidjo

Wakidjan begitu terpesonanya dengan permainan piano Nadine.
Sambil bertepuk tangan, ia berteriak,

“Not a play! Not a play!”
Nadine bengong. “Not a play?”
“Yes… Not a play… Bukan main.”
Tukidjo yang menemani Wakidjan terperangah.
“Bukan main itu bukan not a play, Djan.”
“Your granny! (Mbahmu!). Humanly I have check my dictionary kok. (Orang saya sudah periksa di kamus kok)”

Lalu Wakidjan berpaling ke Nadine. “Lady, let’s corner (Mojok yuk). But don’t think that are nots (Jangan berpikir yang bukan-bukan). I just want a meal together.”
“Ngaco kamu, Djan,” Tukidjo tambah gemes.
“Don’t be surplus (Jangan berlebihan), Djo. Be wrong a little is OK toch?”

Nadine cuman senyum kecil. “I would love to, but …”
“Sorry if my friend make you not delicious (Maaf kalau teman saya bikin kamu jadi nggak enak)”, sambut Wakidjan ramah, “Different river, maybe (Lain kali barangkali). I will not be various kok (Saya nggak akan macam-macam kok)”

Setelah Nadine pergi, Wakidjan menatap Tukidjo dengan sebal. “Disturbing aja sih, Djo. Does the language belong to your ancestor (Emang itu bahasa punya moyang lu)?”

Tukidjo cari kalimat penutup. “Just itchy Djan, because you speak English as delicious as your belly button.” (Gatel aja, Djan, soalnya kamu ngomong Inggris seenak udelmu dewe).

Wakidjan cuman bisa merutuk dalam hati, “His name is also effort.” (Namanya juga usaha).

WASPADA TAHUN 2015!!!!

INGAT!!!

Mama Laurent (alm) pernah mengatakan bahwa dia tidak mampu lagi meramal setelah tahun 2013, penglihatan tertutup tabir hitam kelam gelap dan kotor. Tahun 2015 penuh duka dan bencana. Air mata di mana-mana. Mata air kering, tak mengalir. Boleh percaya boleh tidak, tapi ramalannya jarang meleset. Kita perlu waspada. Mama Laurent juga mengatakan bahwa akan ada penggantinya yang bisa membersihkan tabir hitam, noda hitam dan kotor itu pada tahun ini.

Siapakah dia...?
Dia adalah Mama Lemon, cairan pembersih yang ampuh menghilangkan noda noda hitam di piring gelas dan panci...
Caranya?
Ya lu baca aja petunjuknya, males banget sih jadi orang!?

Missing You

If I hadn't met you,
I wouldn't like you.
If I hadn't liked you,
I wouldn't love you.
If I wouldn't love you,
I wouldn't miss you.

But I did, I do and I will.

I've said it once, I've said it twice, I've said it a thousand fucking times. That I'm okay, that I'm fine, that it's all just in my mind. But this has got the best of me and I can't seem to sleep. I want to scream my lungs out and let the world know that I miss you. But it wouldn't change anything so I'll just keep on pretending I don't. Because I know that you're my could've been, should've been, but never was, and never will be...

Hebatnya Huruf T

Tatkala Temperatur Terik Terbakar Terus,
Tukang Tempe Tetap Tabah, "Tempe-tempe", Teriaknya.
Ternyata Teriakan Tukang Tempe Tadi Terdengar Tukang Tahu,
Terpaksa Teriakannya Tambah Tinggi, "Tahu…Tahu...Tahu…!"
"Tempenya Terbaik, Tempenya Terenak, Tempenya Terkenal!!", Timpal Tukang Tempe.
Tukang Tahu Tidak Terima, "Tempenya Tengik, Tempenya Tawar, Tempenya Terjelek….!"
Tukang Tempe Tertegun, Terhenyak, "Teplakkk!!" Tamparannya Tepat Terkena Tukang Tahu.
Tapi Tukang Tahu Tidak Terkalahkan, Tendangannya Tepat Terkena Tulang Tungkai Tukang Tempe.
Tukang Tempe Terjengkang Tumbang Tapi Terus Tegak, Tatapannya Terhunus Tajam Terhadap Tukang Tahu.
Tetapi, Tukang Tahu Tidak Terpengaruh Tatapan Tajam Tukang Tempe Tersebut.
"Tidak Takut!!" Tantang Tukang Tahu.
Tidak Ternyana Tangan Tukang Tempe Terkepal, Tinjunya Terarah, Terus Tonjokkannya Tepat Terkena Tukang Tahu, Tak Terelakkan.
Tujuh Tempat Terkena Tinjunya, Tonjokan Terakhir Tepat Terkena Telak.
Tukang Tahu Terjerembab.
"Tolong.. Tolong.. Tolong..!", Teriaknya Terdengar Tinggi.
Tanpa Tunda Tempo, Tukang Tempe Teruskan Teriakannya, "Tempe..Tempe..Tempe..!"
Tapi Terus Terdengar Tembakan.
Tukang Tempepun Tertembak Tentara Teroris. Teretetetetetetetetetetetetetetetetet!!!
Tukang Tempe Terkapar Tertembak.
Tukang Tahupun Tertawa Terbahakbahak..
Teletai Teritanya..Tapek Tauuuuukkkkkkkkk!!!

Ntah

Gak tau mau ngepos apa.

Segini dulu.

Bye.

:D

Father's Love

Once there was a child who was so tired of taking care of his father who is very weak because of his incurable disease. So he carried his father on his back to the most corner of the forest to mislead or misguide him.

On their way to the forest, he was wondering why does his father cut every branch of the trees that they pass by.

So he asked his father, "Father, what are you doing? Why are you cutting those branches?"

And so his father replied, "Son, I cut those branches for you to have signs, so you will easily find your way out here, your way home."